oh man

I've slept 9 hours since Monday.

I've never been happier.

A million thoughts are running through my mind. For the first time, in a long time, I feel very hopeful about the future. I'm finally thinking. *whoa*, is this it? Is this that something that has been missing? Is this the thing that everyone talks about, but nobody ever finds because it only happens in the movies?

*sigh*

I just don't know... but for the first time in my life everything feels right. I feel completely comfortable. It is a bizarre feeling because I've always felt a sense of awkwardness... in just about every situation. In this situation, no matter what I'm doing, I feel relaxed. It is a very realistic feeling, but since I don't feel real too often, it feels like a dream.

My heart is pounding as we speak. I think I have found what I'm really looking for, and that is exciting and scary all in the same breath.

I will return soon, or maybe not.