Big changes.

Last summer... in 2005, not this past year, I had this strange epiphany *I know I use that word a bit too much*. I woke up out of a dead sleep. It was 3 am, and my heart was racing. I felt like I had a nightmare or something, but the only thing in my head was "October". At the time, I knew it wasn't October of 05... but the next October 2006.

All year, I just kept having this feeling that my life was going to drastically change this month.

I suppose it has changed.

I decided after a nice trip to Portland, that I'm going to move there. Soon. Now, I don't have any money to move, and I don't have a job/home to go to once I get there, but pish posh, who needs money or plans?

I can't describe it, but it feels right.

Since I have this big goal, I'm "making" plans for myself there. Yesterday, I found a potential job. It is extremely hard to get into, but it's something I've always wanted to try out: 911 Dispatcher. The pay is amazing, but it is a 6 month long interview. Next week, I was planning a road trip to Portland, and it just so happens that the day I'm planning on going is the last day to take the "typing exam" for the position. Upon completing the typing exam, there is another exam in 3 weeks, followed by a face to face interview in December. If you pass all 3 exams AND the interview, there is a 3 month 8 step background check. Not only do they check out you, but they check out your FAMILY! CRAZY!!!!!

Finally in February, they put everyone who passed every part of the process into a bucket, and they draw names for the "911 dispatchers academy". The job starts March 1st. Since it's on a lottery system, I could do a lot of hard work for nothing, but they do keep you on a list for anytime they lose a dispatcher. The pay starts at $36k a year, and it goes to 40k after 6 months. Plus there is 4.6 weeks of paid vacation.. and full benefits starting the first month. The job caps out at 67k a year by the end of 5 years.

I think it would be a really exciting field to be in, and since it is a 24hr a day type of job, I could work over nights or swing shift.. or whenever, and still go to school when I feel like it. So yeah, I'm totally going for it. I'm sick of making shitty pay. I'm educated and extemely talented... I deserve a lot more in life than what I've made for myself.

This is just one of my hair brained ideas, that I wanted to share. Somehow, I feel as if my weight gets tied into everything I do. I know if I made a little more money and had an exciting job, that I'd have finances to go to a gym..and actually buy fruit (fruit is expensive, eating healthy is REALLY expensive). I'd be less stressed out too (stress adds to weight gain, especially in the stomach). Maybe everything will fall into place for me. I'll get settlement money from a car accident I was in back last June... I'll try out a new job.... I'll be in a new city. Maybe I can grow up a bit too along the way. I just feel so damned lost sometimes... like I'm just grabbing for anything to make me stable. blah. whatever. Being unstable is fun sometimes. :)